Thursday, October 27, 2005
finally watched 40-year-old virgin today...
super happy.
hilarious show and really really funny.
whoever dares to say that the show was all about sex, i'll bite off your ear.
it's about love...and about making love. not having sex.
hmph. don't ask me what's the diff cos that'll make me despise you like crazy.
but guys like that Andy cannot be found anymore...sad.
i'm blabbering rubbish...but what the heck.
the movie was exciting too...in more ways then one *winkz*
hmm.
dunno what else to say.
should i or should i not?i'm tempted to. but i know it's not a clever option.sighbut it's bugging me.it's unfair...to me, and to all the others.i'm afraid it'll complicate things all over again thoughhow? how?shoud i just forget, and move on with life?easier said than done.argh.i'm lost..................Friday...should i stay home, be good, or go out and have fun?
so tempted to call up someone to accompany me but dunno whether it'll be okay.
sigh.
well, it's just too bad that i've been an independent gurl all my life.
i'm so used to going out on my own that when i have the craving to go out with someone, i dunno who to call.
it's not totally a bad thing...but sometimes it sucks.
and when i do go out with someone, i dunno what to do.
and i dunno where to go.
ever since i was young, i never depended on friends to fill up my time...i've always been satisfied doing my own stuff and having fun the way i want.that's why when i go out with someone, dun expect me to think of something to do...it's a hopeless thought.i used to know one or two peeps who think like me so we could meet up, each carry a book, go to Starbucks somewhere and chill the whole day. we didn't have to be talking...but it's the feeling of having someone there to entertain you when u wanna take a break from your book. sigh. no one seems game enough for something like that anymore nowadays. after those one or two peeps walked out of my life, i realised i lost alot of that easy companionship.it's not easy to find someone who can be with you in silence...even through silence, there's that comfortable rapport that needs no words. it's that wonderful feeling of beig able to go out with someone and not have any plans in mind, go where our feet takes us and whatever it is...it doesn't take lotsa words, jokes or forced conversations. it gets tiring after a while....it's just not natural anymore. i'm still searching for someone like that i guess...someone who'll listen to me without criticising, commenting or putting down. sigh.why do i sound so emo?
it's a happy day and i thoroughly enjoyed myself.
that's more than enough!
thank you, my dear...
nighty nighty!
'fallen_angel'
12:03 PM