Saturday, February 25, 2006
if you're wondering what happened to me since i haven't been updating my blog since Wednesday, here's a lowdown on all that happened in the last 3 days.
Thursday was my last paper - Lodging Systems and Operations.
here, i'd like to sincerely thank Mr Revi Nair fo setting such an easy paper!
muahaha.
it was really kinda easy and that makes it all better...what a wonderful ending to our final Year 2 exams =)
finished the paper within an hour plus and went K-ster with Sher, Bel, Tat, Gav, Drey and Tian...
the mood was abit........dead? guess cos everyone was so dead shagged out...
and the entire chinatown k-ster was filled with our people...there was gayna's group, garry's group, meiqi's group, etc etc etc.
so fun to see everyone at the same place!
haha
but i was kinda no mood lar...cos my darling was so tired and bored out...sigh
anyway, after that we left earlier to go to Nat's chalet which was all the way at Changi Safra...
Jodin was being a joker all the way on the train, including using his famous Hong Kong accent to say sorry to a lady whose feet he accidentally stepped on.
haha...i laughed and laughed till tears started rolling down my tricks
haha
asshole
anyway
we reached the chalet at about 7 plus and saw cal, justin and his four wives there already....nicole brought her bf james too.
the whole night went by in a blur cos i'm so so so tired...
all i can remember is that we all drank quite alot...especially Nat.
he got drunk.
pissed drunk
to the extent of climbing over the fence, getting his hand cut but not knowing it.
and other really funny things he did which i had better not say ;)
then we played Betrayal, sang songs and then i think i fell asleep with tian on the mattress right next to the mahjong table.
haha
it's amazing how well we can sleep even in such an environment cos we were tired.
the next thing i know, it was 9 am in the morning and the guys (alan, peter, cal and clifton) finally finished their mahjong session which went on from 2 am till then
crazy people.
then everyone just collapsed into whatever space they can find and slept like pigs.
i should have taken a pic of that scene...hilarious...
on the floor everywhere, on the sofa, etc
haha
comical
at 12 noon we headed for a bowling session.
conclusion,
it's either i need my own ball and shoes to play, or i seriously need to train again.
haha
pathetic scores lar!
haha
then we went back to the chalet and watched Brokeback Mountain dvd which my 'jie mei' just returned to me.
i guess those guys were only interested in watching it cos of the gay sex scenes and Anne Hathaway's boobs.
they didnt know how to appreciate an arty film like that.
well, i guess it's also that half the time Heath Ledger was just mumbling to himself....Jake Gyllenhaal wasn't as bad.
difficult to concentrate and understand lar
then the bbq started and we ate and ate and chilled out at the same time.
the night sky was too cloudy to be admired but nevertheless it's a view i love...
people who know me well enough will know how much i love the seaside at night...
that night we didnt do much...
slept at 1 plus in the morning, then woke up to checkout this morning.
here, i must thank my dearest boyfriend...last night, i was dead tired and wanted to sleep really badly...but with my sensitive nose, i couldnt sleep upstairs in the room cos of the aircon and the dust.i couldn't stop sneezing and my eyes started to tear and itch really badly.in the end, i had to go downstairs but the mattresses were all taken.sighwanting me to be comfortable, he carried 2 of the single sofa seats and joined them together so that i could be more comfortable...then i fell sleep almost immediatelyafter that all i could remember was he putting my arms around a pillow which he took from upstairsthen after awhile, he woke me up and made me sleep on the mattress and he covered a blanket over me.only this morning did i find out that he stayed up till 3 plus in the morning, waited for Claudia's bf to pick her up so that he could get me the mattress that she was sleeping on.awwww...so sweet of himi feel so bad larsighthanks alot baby...for everything u did for me...i love you...now he's probably at Asian Aerospace with Vic...hope he enjoys himself...probably won't be seeing him for the next few days...i'm missing him already...*pouts* (haha...jodin, this was an inspiration from u)i've got to go to work at Raffles Hotel Long Bar later on....5 pm to 1 am.
hope i can survive..
first day at work...better not screw up...
gonna go take a nap now...
will update soon...
don't miss me!
'fallen_angel'
11:35 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
FM today was pretty cool.
i know i'll pass.
but whether i do well or not is really hard to tell.
i really hope i can get better grades.
sigh
nothing much happened today
came home straight after the paper.
and now, i'm gonna go sleep first before starting on Lodging notes.
last paper tmw!
wish me best of luck!
hmm
then we're going KTV.
like finafuckinglly.
wahaha.
excuse my language...i'm just excited that the end of the exams are nearing.
=D
i love you tian... and i hope u love me too?
he-he
and yes, i wanna agree with your point that the day you have to choose to walk away will never come.
faith...
i'll try to be satisfied with that special place in your heart...though at times i really still do wish that i can not only be your lover...but also your confidante, best friend and friend.
but i doubt it's quite possible huh?
sigh
but i still love you.
and no matter what u say, you're still important to me...
'fallen_angel'
7:29 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
fuck.
i'm officially a goner for my MICE exam paper.
i left numerous questions blank and the rest was not even halfway done.
why?
cos i blanked out.
yesh.
for the first time in 12 years, i blanked out.
ever since my first test in Primary, i've never blanked out for an exam before.
walked in clueless, yes. but blanked out? hell no.
but it happened today.
and for the first time in 12 years, i cried after walking out of the examination room.
i couldnt help it.
i studied! for heaven's sake, i studied my ass out!
everyone who studied with me over the past week would know.
i studied like a mad woman but in the end i forgot everything i studied.
why?
dont ask me.
i wouldnt be here now if i knew why.
fucking piece of crapshit.
i hate MICE. and gavin, if u happen to read this, please return me my MICE notes?
i'll need it for Supp paper in a few weeks' time.
thanks alot man.
and mummy, sorry.
i know u want me to get back my DHL from last year...
but i think i'll have to disappoint you once again.
cos supp paper=no DHL
simple.
oh well
fuck
i hate myself.
and i need to get down to studying for FM
if the same thing happens, i'll kill myself.
tmw's paper in the afternoon but i'll be going to school early to study again.
it's the only thing that can make me wake up early in the morning so i wont waste the whole morning lazing in bed.
god bless me.
i need to study.
i need to score.
i need my baby...
i need someone to gimme a great big hug now...
sigh.
but in the meantime, UZap! here i come.......................................
'fallen_angel'
10:28 PM
Monday, February 20, 2006
ok i know i'm not supposed to be blogging cos i'm supposed to be studying for my exams tmw.
but
i'm bored with MICE.
oops.
oh well
accounting paper today went well
and i got back culinary science and FBO coursework grades.
culi was bad...c, c+ and b.
it's depressing.
well, at least we got a B for our team project!
well done everyone =D grreat great effort!
but thank god for FBO - B
sigh
could have done better but no complains anyway.
i'm just really really happy that my dear boyfriend got a B too...
seems like we're quite on par with most of our subs this sem!
haha...
it's amazing and i'm so so proud of you baby =)tmw got 2 papers...FBO and MICE at night.
i just hope i'll have the mood to do my paper at night.
sigh
gonna chiong abit of MICe tonight, wake up early tmw morning to revise FBO and revise MICE tmw afternoon.
wish me luck!
oh and he came to my house this afternoon.
it was supposed to be a study session
and this was what it became....................

my sleepyhead baby ended up falling asleep in MY bed for a good whole hour. while i studied at the table right next to him. grrrr....
and though the weather was freaking warm and i didnt switch on the aircon, he wrapped himself up in my thick blanket. tsk tsk tsk. it was a pretty adorable sight though...my pink and red bedsheets, pillowcovers and pink curtains next to my bed and him in in. awwwww....
haha...i took this photo when he was sleeping....don't you think he resembles that piglet in my cushion? muahahaha...my dear piglet...i love you!
grandma was home and she was cool with him, wanted him to stay for dinner but he had dinner at home... when we reached home, Chloe was still fast asleep. haha...i kicked her outta bed so we could use the room to study. after which she went to buy tidbits and ice-cream for us =D
managed to go through FBO together with him though...so it wasnt that bad... =) alright now...gotta get back to studying... i'll be back!
'fallen_angel'
8:35 PM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
OMG
what a fulfilling day today was!
in the morning, i woke up at 5.30 am so that i could go to the airport to send Jude off to Perth.
i've got no idea when will be the next time i see him and since my beloved baby says i should go, i went without worries :)
met Rozy at the bus terminal before going to look for him
and saw Desiree there as well.
quite surprised to see her cry though...sad.
saw a few of the peeps we hanged out with before and i seriously hope we can maintain our friendships cos they're all cool people.
then went to TM to eat McDonald's for bfast...cos my sayang wanted somewhere where she could smoke.
sayang, sayang....time to start cutting down! think of it this way: when u stop, u minimise the temptation for me =D boleh?haha
kidding lar...
at 10.30, we headed to TP to start our mugging session...
the moment i sat down at our usual benches, i realised that i dont have my file and my FBO txtbk with me! it was supposed to be in my hands!
and the only place we could think of was Mc's.
so i rushed back to find it...
wanted to take bus there...but in my hurry, i left my EZ-link card in my bag....
ended up taking cab to TM and back to TP
thank goodness my stuff were still on the seat!
phew~!
relief flooded through my veins *cliche ;)*
finally got down to studying and i got sleepy...and i blame it on the windy weather and early start to the day =P
baby and cal finally ARRIVED at 1 plus...or was it 2? anyway.
haha
and i'm proud to say Cal actually did quite alot...
he probably studied more in one day today than he would in a whole week on his own...
proud of him
and my darling as well:)
though they were noisy and distracting, it was fun...
my sayang Rozy was so stressed though...
tsk tsk tsk...
suffering from
Iman withdrawal symptom?
muahahaha
*hugz*
5 plus, we all left...
Cal and Tian went home
Rozy and I didnt feel like going home yet so we went to Starbucks @ TM to chill...
miss talking to her so so so much manz.
finally satisfied my talk-to-sayang cravings*beams*
we sat there and chatted for close to 2 hours...
and i must say it felt great
i cant even recall the last time we talked to no ends like today...
we chatted about everything that has been going on in our lives...
bitched about anyone and everyone we could think of
and reminicised about the times we used to share together in Year 1...
those were the days man...
sigh
i didnt know i missed her that much until today!
and sayang, i'm truly truly happy for you.Iman seems great and i will pray for your happiness...you deserve everything u've got today...if he ever breaks your precious heart, i'll break his ****...*evil laughs*treasure this relationship but protect your heart at the same time...whatever happens, you know there's a person here you can depend on right?i love you sayang!finally left for home at 7.30 pm...
and she went to meet her bby...
hope she enjoys herself:)
i've slacked till now, and i desperately need to get started on my studying.
sigh
sorry baby...i think i neglected u in this entry...dont be jealous of my sayang k? i still love you! *beams*tomorrow got Accounting bootcamp for the guys (whoever is interested)
and i hope i have the time to study for my other subs.
so far..................coursework grades are not to bad...but could have been better if i put in more effort throughout the semester...sigh. upset. oh well...cant complain cos it's better than last sem's! A-B-B-B. that's all i have so far. god bless me. i wanna maintain this for the final results.
i promise i'll learn to be a nicer person!
*shivers*
haha
good night everyone...happy mugging!
'fallen_angel'
10:12 PM
argh
the pain in my stomach is killing me!~
hurts like shit and the medicine's not working
don't ask me to go crap cos it doesnt work!
nothing comes out of it.
literally
sighh~
and tomorrow i'm gonna wake up at like 5 plus am to send someone off.
thanks again baby.i love you for everything u said to me today.the fact that you think i should go tomorrow and that you wont be angry at all.so big-hearted of you!love you to bits baby...as the days pass and i spend more and more time with ya, i'm getting to love ya more and more.cya tmw!
i need to go rest...my stomach is killing me!
still!
ugh.
nitez all.
'fallen_angel'
12:25 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
latest update for today
early morning at 9 am, we reported to Raffles Hotel as we were involved in the lunch service at Raffles Grill for their annual Wine, Food and Arts event (WFAe)
i loved their uniform for it looked really smart :)
anyway, had quite a lot of people there...
sher, bel, val, joyce, my dear and many more.
had lotsa fun working with these people
especially under Lawrence, who was the manager of Long Bar.
during intervals, we found out that Lawrence knows
Daniel Chia (a.k.a Mr-appointment-must-be-made-48hrs-beforehand-or-i-wont-entertain) and
Darren Neo (a.k.a. Mr-Doraemon-sabai-KTV-siao-with-2-lovely-kids-named-after-popular-singers). Apparently, Neo and him were good friends...and we totally could see why - same vibe, same craziness and same sense of fun.
the event we did was Lunch with Jacques & Laurent Pourcel @ Raffles Grill.
these are award-winning chefs, excellent excellent food and grumpy faces.
haha
it's true!
seems to me all good chefs come with grumpy faces.
oh well
to me, today didnt go very well...for a couple of reasons:
1. we were made to wear white gloves for service, which made the landing of dishes extremely tricky. in the first place, the plates were already heavy. plus the soup dish had 2 plates and a bowl (all without underliners) and it was freaky. super freaky to serve. it made me look like i couldnt serve for nuts. but i'm innocent! not my fault............... ok maybe i still need to brush up on my fine-dining service skills but it definitely was a great experience.
2. there was one particular person in the team who was extremely annoying. couldnt stop talking, couldnt stop complaining and just like one other guy in our HTM course, cant seem to take a step back - must always attract attention to him/herself. pissed the shit outta me. thank gos it was only for those few hours. if i have to work with her continually, i'll just faint.
3. i wasnt feeling too well...since the past few days. could be that my stomach flu from last week hasnt completely recovered, but mystomach hurt and i was feeling a little faint on and off. sigh.
but one good thing though...i've found myself a job to keep me occupied for my upcoming holidays... Lawrence will welcome me to Long Bar and i'll take this opportunity.
i'm sick and tired of not earning my own money and perpetually having to ask mummy for money...especially since she's trying hard to keep the family afloat.
and my baby...have to stop sponging off him and using his money.
shall depend on myself from now on =D
after work at 3,
dear and i went to Haagen Dazs at Raffles City to eat our long-craved-for FONDUE!!!
yum yum
fingerlicking good...
thanks baby... enjoyed it to bits...we were so tired that we went home straight after that...
he took a cab, and i took the train...
peak hour on MRT = no seats.
bleah
tired like shit
now, i'm blogging while waiting for dinner...and tonight, i've gotta mug.
time to make up for lost time.
i aim to complete studying Lodging by tonight:)
confident that i can do it *beams*
bye all...
everyone's mugging...happy studying!!!
sorry...i know this pic abit no link ah...but i found it in my folder and found it super funny...my tomboy sista asking me to put mascara on for her on CNY =) my calling? "professional make-up artist"

'fallen_angel'
5:44 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
5th month anniversary today.and as usual, went studying at his house.
finished up my accounting...
haha
morning, i was supposed to be at his place at 10 so we can start studying early.
but, being the lazy lazy me, i overslept and was about half hour late...
funniest thing was that i was watching fashion show on the bus and missed the bustop for his house
like wadehell?!
i cant seem to quit my fashion show addiction.
sigh
end up had to cross overhead bridge and walk all the way back to his house.
mind you, the sun was scorching.
i sms-ed him before i reached and he said he's awake already.
bluff me!
i let myself into the house and climbed 3 flights of stairs to his room on the 3rd floor
guess what i saw?
my big-lazy-bummy-baby still sleeping like a pig in bed!haha
i plonked myself down beside him on the bed and all he did was GRUNT.like "hmmm"something like that at least.haha
all my calls of 'wake up!' were responded with grunts that sounded vaguely similar.
after like 20 mins. i gave up and crawled under the sheets next to him.
and surprisingly, he responded by hugging me.
haha
amazingly amazing.
he finally managed to drag himself outta bed one hour after i arrived.
by then, already almost lunch time...wasted the whole morning again.
sigh
the rest of the afternoon passed like a blur of time
i was drowsy cos of the scorching afternoon heat
and totally bored of accounting
before i knew it, i fell asleep at the table for something like half an hour, woke up with pins and needles all over my hands and legs.
argh
then came dinner...today had home-cooked food with the family.
felt a little awkward cos after all, we still not familiar with each other...
but it was okay i guess...
finally decided i was too tired to stay on...so went home
and now i'm here earlier than the past few days.
sigh
happy anniversary to a few others as well...
i dunno alot who has anniversaries on the 15th...but i think there's cheow joo-terence, gladys-marcus(though i dunno them) and few more others...cant remember.
though today was just like any other day,i still enjoyed your company...felt an intense moment of bliss in the morning when i sat by your bed watching you sleep...i love you... now and forever...i'm gonna go sleep so that i wont space out at Raffles Hotel tmw...
*good night...sweet dreams...sleep tight...*
'fallen_angel'
10:36 PM
seeing that it's gonna be the 15th in a while, i've gotta say this -
Happy 5th month baby!
it's only been 5 months...
but you already mean the world to me...
i love you more than i ever thought i would and i'm looking forward to a bright and happy life with you as my brightest spark...
with you as my guardian angel...(which i know you'll kill to be =P)
plenty more 15ths to come and i'll be faithfully counting down to 15th of Sept every year...
which means, lucky gavin!
i'll never be able to forget his birthday...
muahaha...
good night and sweet dreams to the world!
'fallen_angel'
12:42 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Happy Valentine's Day!to all my dear friends out there - i'm missing all of you and can't wait to see you again. like Edna... i'll keep my promise to meet you up after my exams! and all my dearies... i shall book all of you for a KTV session after our final paper next thursday!haha...
sorry folks... i'm a little high today...
a little update on my V-Day:
went to baby's place to study again as usual...
with Cal and Jodin as well...
guess everyone was feeling a little emo about having to study on V-Day...
especially Jodin sia...tsk tsk...can feel his emo-ness perpetually =P
i started the day feeling a little disappointed and emo too lar...
i mean... it's our first v-day and it's spent in such a sad manner.
haha
can't blame me rite?
but as i told you dear, it's not your fault...it's circumstances.but i'll still hold you to your word for a make-up after the exams! =Dand so, the rest of the day i was trying really hard to control my frustration
frustration that stemmed purely from the guys' gaming addict.
for every hour that they studied (or read their notes), they gamed for another half an hour or 45 min.
annoying
worse thing was that when they are not gaming, they are talking about it or playing their annoying songs so super loudly.
well, it actually wouldn't be that bad if i had remembered to charge my discman's battery!
crapshit
then i would have the luxury of the options - listen to them, or tune out with the help of my discman.
grrrr......
so...let's see...
then i emo-ed out on my darling for awhile at 6 plus...
which i'm still really sorry for till now...
was a bitch who deserved to be slapped upside-down
bleah
then we ordered Modesto's!
haha....
delivery time: 2 hours!!!
i was already kinda hungry by then but put up with it for the sake of Modesto's.
muahaha...
his maid cooked pandan chicken and had some left-over so he fed me some to keep my hunger in control before the food came.
he actually fed me... so i could keep my hands clean and un-oily.
awwwwwhahathanks baby
then the doorbell rang within 1 hr 15 mins of ordering...and i was happy!
but turned out to be the wrong order...
they screwed up our orders and delivered someone else's order to us!
sigh
but can't blame them too...it was probably a busy night for them...
our orders were delivered about 15/20 mins later...
and we had fun eating...i think more like cos Star Movies was airing Love Actually.
*beams*
i finally got to watch that show...like from the beginning!
haha
watched it just once before...but only the last bit...starting from the scene of Keira Knightly opening the door for the guy for liked her...
she's so so so heavenly gorgeous.
ok...sidetracked.
but it wasnt the dinner...or the show...it was the company of my dearest tian.it felt so right to be eating dinner with him by my sideand it felt so right to be curling up in front of the TV at night...watching movie on cable...sigh...felt great...almost didnt feel like going home...being by your side felt like home to me already.ok ok...getting mushy... sorry =Pbut finally got going home... wanted to give him some of his own free time and personal space...
hope it's a good thing :)
now i'm here blogging...
and sincerely wishing everyone enjoyed their v-day...love is one thing that deserves to be celebrated...no matter what it's nature is...no matter what time of the year it is...
tomorrow morning will be going back to his place to study...hoping to finish up MICE and accounting totally...
and i think tmw it's gonna be just me and him...
let's focus, study hard and ganbatte together k?i love you and i know you love me too ;)cya tmw baby!
'fallen_angel'
11:48 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
1st day of study week and i think i did well
studied at his place the whole day
gavin, jodin and cal supposed to come
but cal said he headache
jodin said he not coming (dunno why)
and gavin came like super late...4 pm.
haha
my baby didnt really study alot though i could see that he tried really hard.
i finish my personal MICE notes already...
and i think it's a great start
tomorrow, hopefully jodin and cal can get their asses over to start their studying and stop gaming endlessly at home.
but let's see...
even if they come, they'll probably end up gaming too.
no diff lar
i just hope they'll listen to my nagging a little more than gavin
he's one hopeless case.
stuck to WoW already lar
sigh
but then again,
tomorrow's Valentine's Day!
our very first v-day together
but guess what?
we're gonna spend the day mugging for accounting exams
sad...
oh well...i guess there are plenty more v-days we can spend together...
and if we're happy together, everyday's v-day.
only diff is that on Feb 14th, everthing is a million times more expensive.
guess it's a good idea to stay home too...
save money for my baby...
plus, everywhere's crowded like nobody's business...
oh wellllll....
this morning, before going to dear's place, i went to town to buy my long-craved for organiser
haha
went shopping a little...
wanted to look for something for baby as a v-day gift...
but couldnt find anything i liked after like 1 hour of walking around.
really very sadnow i've got nothing for him for v-day...
sigh sigh sigh
contemplated making something, but couldnt think of anything too...probably cos i know i suck at handicraft...i'm not the arty-farty sorta person
initially thought of baking............but no time
arghhhh!
sad...
oh well...
plus it's our 5th month anniversary the next day on the 15th...
sigh
and then we'll probably be mugging for.....i dunno....FM?~
haha
pathetic
but i still love you baby!promise i'll make it up to u after the exams k?well....but come to think of it, you still owe me christmas present from last year!muahahahalousy lar you....but still...i love you!hmmm....what next?
one more week of mugging and one more week of exams...
before freedom will prevail for the next7 weeks or so...
i just need the perseverence and motivation to get through this 2 weeks...
i know i can make it...
and baby, we'll make it together...work hard...even if it's just for me....can?ganbatte kudasai!!!
stop WoW-ing lar guys...sigh...hopeless...
haha
off to bed...good night everyone!
*happy valentine's day to all lovers out there! cherish all who you love and give them all your love, passion and let romance flood your lives...even if it's just for this one day...*
'fallen_angel'
11:30 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Chloe got 7 A1s for her o'levels!
freak it!
haha
so proud of her
but...
dreading mummy...
cos she's so gonna brag about that 7 A1s for a long long time to come...
haha
but my dear sister is not going to a JC...
she's going...TP's biotechnology course i think?
muahaha...
influenced by me!
JC is a boring place, with stuck-up kids who think they're greater than anyone else
and who says poly kids are dumb?
my sis will be a bright spark
i am a bright spark too =P
and there are people like......gayna?
haha
clever A1-highflyers who ditched JC life to embrace the exciting poly life.
yay...even more proud of sis.
=D
hmmm
let's see
down with stomach flu again
sigh
felt sick for the past 2 days or so
but better now =)
today had event in TAS
Otto Weiber Culinary Scholarship competition
reporting time was at 7.30 am
and Iggy volunteered to pick me up from home and send me to school :)
really thankful for that...cos not only did i get to sleep an extra half hour before waking up,
i slept in the car on the way too...hugging his eeyore cushion...
reminded me of YK...but oh well :)
the event!
it was exciting....
with young promising chefs from all over S'p striving for a single scholarship
Marina Mandarin, Raffles Hotel, SHATEC, Zambuca, at-sunrice Academy, and many more...
great chefs like Otto Weiber, Christophe Megel, Angelo Sanelli and Eric Teo were all around...
great great eye-opener!
saw for the first time huge whole fresh Norwegian salmon and halibut fishes plus massive Norwegian Crabs.
FYI, the norwegian king crabs boasts a cost price of $90+ per kg.
and we all had the honour of eating them fresh.
it is just absolutely amazing...sweet and it totally makes the Long Beach and whatever crap crabs look totally lacklustre and let's just say there isn't even a competition.
got an offer by Marina Mandarin's sous chef to join their Italian restaurant as a waitress...
but according to Mr Neo and Mr Lee, he's just out to get my number.
well, i gave him my number in the end...cos you'd never know what opportunities might come your way.
they pay's good there i heard =)
hmm...what else?
well, besides being shagged out?
i missed my Raffles Hotel WFA training session
the competition got delayed and we couldnt make it in time
sigh
but it's a rather good thing too i guess...cos i'm so dead tired :P
went home with my darling after that...
his mum picked us up...
was so dead tired that we went straight up to his room for a nap...
didnt really intend to sleep...
but the moment i hit the pillows with his arms around me, i fell asleep...
like deep deep sleep
haha
pathetic
until the intercom came -
"yang! are you coming down for dinner?! come down now!"
haha
woke us up really reluctantly...
washed up and went down for dinner
beef noodles.
haha
seems like everytime i go over to eat,
i'm fated to eat something i've never eaten before in my life
the last time was the first time i ate laksa.
today?
the first time in my life i ever ate beef noodles...
no comments about it...cos i only ate the noodles....
he ate my beef balls and beef slices for me...
then came the gaming time
he gamed, i watched.
WOW. not an exclamation, but a game.
World of Warcraft.
the creature spent his life walking round and round the 'world' looking for people, avoiding attacks, defending itself from mindless attacks from other creatures and killed innocent bunnies, deers, cows and plus, de-skinned them.
sigh
guys and their mindless games.
sorry but i really do feel that way.
sorry Mr. Dillon!
i know you love that game too.
=P
then when he finally realised that i was bored out of my mind, he quit the game to accompany me.
but i think he quit the game more because..........................................haha............i promised to keep it a secret.
anyway
watched TV, ate durian and stoned....
durian!
hmm
i cant even remember the last time i ate them...
he opened the durians with so much brute force that he broke the table
muahaha...
seriously!
he did...
but hmmm...impressed that he could open durians...
so many people i know dunno how to...
*muacks*
finally got too tired and went home...
so here i am now...
blogging about nothing interesting in particular...
well,
i'm too tired to think so please forgive me.
tomorrow!
when i need a break from studying, i'll blog about more interesting stuff...
i promise!!!
i love you dear... alot alot alot... *hugz* if i ever do anything to let you down, forgive me... cos i really do love you... good night everybody....may the angels bless you with sweet dreams and a wonderful night...
'fallen_angel'
12:49 AM
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
alright
the following photos are all not in order
just random ones i felt like posting
=)

my pretty sisters...well, chantal looks better in person...without the squinting of her eyes =P
SJCC Lo Hei Dinner 2006 *stole this pic off Siying's bloggie =P* black, white and red. all my favourite colours!
the girls i grew up with... i love each and everyone of them to bits... i say we've got pretty genes running through the family... what say you? *beams*
ahh...T03. my beloved class for 2 whole semesters in Tourism Academy @ Sentosa. we're all gonna miss the beautiful island campus won't we? the best memory of poly life...cherish it forever!
Chloe's birthday...and my bro's acting spastic. calling for interested parties...Chloe's single, available and hot stuff! haha...this is what i call open promotions for the pretty nerd who sleeps with me everynight for the past 17 years.
okay...wanted to post more but blogger screwing up...as usual...be back soon! stay tuned...
'fallen_angel'
8:34 PM
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
like i said last night, i feel like i have a lot to say
but now, all i have is a mental block.
despite that i still have the urge to write.
write what? i don't know...honestly.
someone told me life is depressing
others tell me life is beautiful.
what truly is life?
i think i have said this before but i shall repeat myself -
life is nothing more than a journey towards an end known as 'Death' and what matters most, is how you walk that road.
what i'm trying to say is that i believe the above theory on life.
and on this road of life, i wanna have the people i love right next to me...
my baby, my mummy and my siblings...
friends cannot and will never be forgotten...
guys and gals, you know who you are...
career, wealth and all material items are not necessities;
merely a bonus to make the journey more comfortable and maybe less bumpy...
about a year of serious depression gave me a clearer insight to life...
it's nothing to be ashamed of.
in fact, i'm proud that i've come out of it successfully and now know the secrets to being a happier person.
i used to believe that life was nothing was controlled by a particular omni-potent bitch who'd screw the rest of your life up once you make a mistake.
i could never trust anyone... for everytime i open up my heart, someone betrays the trust and breaks my heart.
i never had faith and confidence in myself... for i believed that i'm not the perfect person i wanna be... fear was that i'd disappoint all the people i love around me.
but you know what?
it's all over now.
all of us make mistakes... and you've gotta start to learn how to forgive yourself. but do not forgive and forget... bear it in mind so that the same mistake would never be repeated. blaming yourself will only make you a pain in the ass to the people around you. plus, it's easier for people to forgive and perhaps forget, if you can forgive yourself and not remind everyone of what you did time and again. the rest of your life doesnt have to be affected by the mistake you made. i know there are times when repercussions will be felt... but this is what i can say... whine, cry, groan and complain all you can when the mistake is made. but as soon as possible, pick yourself up along with the pieces you dropped and move on with life. time will continue to tick its meter and will not wait for you to finish whining.trust is a delicate thing. so difficult to build up and nurture. but all it takes is one small blow to be shattered. and once shattered, the cracks will forever stay...never to be healed totally. but then again, don't ever let the cracks made from another person affect the trust you share with someone else. once you bring your insecurities from a previous relationship to a new relationship, it already starts the downfall of it. without a blank sheet to start with, this new relationship can never grow, develop and prove itself. it's unfair. to you, to him/her and to the relationship. it hurts to be hurt time and again... but it'll hurt even more for the rest of your life if you destroy the possibly-happy relationship you're trying to nurture.today, i know who i am. i know what i want from my life and i know what i'm capable of achieving. everyone should. and that gives me the self-confidence i used to lack..and the faith in myself...the faith that i am the best i can be. no one can be perfect to everyone. i just hope to be perfect most importantly to the people i love...him and my family... and also to myself. i know i'm not perfect. but in my own eyes, the girl i see on the other side of the mirror everyday is exactly the one i wanna see for the rest of my life. this is who i wanna be...on the inside. no matter how my appearance will change i will still love myself...just for the sake of it.i dunno if anything i'm saying today makes any sense at all...
but doesnt matter...
why?
cos it's MY blog...my own space.
read it and if u understand, good for you.if you don't? aww...too bad.
baby, i love you...
'fallen_angel'
11:11 PM
Monday, February 06, 2006
on the phone with my baby now
was just telling him that i so wanna update my blg
but i'm so super shagged out, tired and exhausted now
sigh
cant think of things to put down
i had a million thoughts running through my head...
everything i wanted to pen down in this blog of mine
but now my mind's a blank.
maybe tomorrow after culinary science execution i'll come back here.
just a little something i wanna say to my baby here -
what you said today meant alot...i know i scared u a little last night but it was truly how i felt...u keep saying i'm perfect...but i know i'm notnevertheless, i know there's a lot more i need to change and i promise i will.i wanna be perfect for the one i loveand for the first time i heard you say what u said in the resource centre...i was stunned and speechless...i won't leave you... that's a promise...at least for as long as you want me and for as long as i know u love me...i love you...
'fallen_angel'
11:48 PM
Friday, February 03, 2006
countdown to final exams...
18 days...
only!!!
argh...
and it actually still feels as though the semester just started...
sigh...
time flies...it still feels like yesterday that me and him spent the whole study week studying at the TAS library and at his house...the sweet sweet times...the next 2 weeks will most probably like that too...
anyone wants to sign up for study group?call me!!!haha...
it's more fun to study in a group...but only if everyone can motivate each other...e.g. if you put gavin, tian and cal together to study together, it's gonna be disastrous.see what i mean?muahaha...
my newest resolution - immediately after this entry, i shall get started on my MICE notes...let's see...this entire semester i attended MICE lecture twice?
haha...i'll be damn surprised if i can do well at all...
MICE online test only 20/40
haha
damn bad lar...
i wonder..is it Low or Ram that has caused my downfall in this sub?
hmm...wonder wonder... thought for the night...
sigh
next week will be hectic...have to go for all lectures and tutorials...except Facilities Management...
sigh
and next week got Jap role play...
here's part of my script: kyo wa tanoshikatta nedemo konban yakusoku ga arimasu kara...haha...my longest line...anyone can guess what i'm saying?=)someone gave me a feng shui book yesterday...
"Lillian Too's Fortune & Feng Shui 2006 for the Rabbit"
following will be a few excerpts...since most of my loyal readers are 1987 Female Fire Rabbits too :)
the fire element adds plenty of vigour to the rabbit character. She is a lot more outgoing than most other rabbits and there is a vivacity in her that comes across in a very charming manner. what you see is not necessarily what you get because Fire Rabbit ladies are very good at camouflaging their inner thoughts. This lady has many ideas and strategies up her sleeve this year and you would not knowit. But stay along for the ride and you might be charmed silly!here's a little bit for myself...the Rabbit-Tiger pairing -
2006 sees this unlikely pair bringing out the best in each other. Usually these 2 will show a clash of styles and values. In 2006, they will have a lot of admiration and trust for each other. the Rabbit is strong in 2006 and will enjoy good times. the Tiger's brash ferocity is nowhere in sight this year so the 2 will get along. Nevertheless, it is important to realise that these 2 individuals are really different people. Their attitudes are different. the Tiger is direct and confrontational while the prudent Rabbit prefers diplomacy. The Tiger's nature in domineering whereas the Rabbit finds such behavious offensive. The Rabbit can usually respect people of similar intellectual interests, and his/her tastes are too genteel for the Tiger. In the event that these 2 should come together, the Tiger should be careful not to under-estimate the Rabbit.so...it's safe to say that i'll be having a great year ahead!
yay!
haha...let's make full use of it...
so happens that this year will be the most crucial in our careers as we choose our SIP employers...
we'll see how the year folds out then...
cheers everyone...
time to start pia-ing for my studies...
=P
'fallen_angel'
8:13 PM
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
despite disagreements and misunderstandings,my love for you will remain...i'm sorry for being unreasonable and insensitive at times...forgive me?u mean too much to me now...dont ever give up on our happiness alright?i love you...and thank you for yesterday...watched fearless at marina square with baby...
it was an amazing show...really horrifically gory and disgusting at times...
the fighting scenes i mean...
but at the end of the day, the honour of wushu was born...
respect for others is the key in practising martial arts...
everyone should go watch it...
it's really worth the money...
throughout the movie, i was freezing my ass off and he took off his shirt for me...
muahaha...
no no
it's not what u guys are thinking...
he had another t-shirt under his shirt...
so yeah...
thanks baby!so sweet of you...felt so xin fu when i had your shirt over my shoulders...after the movie, we went to eat at Swensen's...
we were both craving black pepper seafood pasta but being as sweet as ever, he let me have it and he ordered teriyaki chicken pasta instead...
thanks baby...again...then sent him home by bus, during which the aircon was very cold again so had his shirt on me once again...
fell sleep for a little while on his shoulders...
felt even more xin fu then...
baby...have i ever told you this? i wanna have your wonderful shoulders to lean on for the rest of my life...it's where i wanna be...*shy*oops...
did i just say that?
=P
took cab from his place and he asked me to keep his shirt in case i got cold in the cab...
but know what?
i think it's more so that i can cover up my spaghetti top and deprive the taxi uncle of any view of pretty pretty me...
wahaha...
so thick-skinned...
*smirks*
am i right baby?
but i know u just dont wanna let people take advantage of me...
thanks...once again...
more than once, people have asked me over the past few days..."you seem to be very happy now? he's treating you good?"and everytime i'll reply: yes...i'm extremely satisfied with my life now...and he's getting better and better at loving me...i hope it'll stay that way...i know we're both still very young and especially when u've got further studies to think about and you havent really been out in the working world...there's a great chance you might change...and our relationship will change too...it's mother nature's doing and no-one would be to blame...for me, i believe i've seen enough after so many years of working out there and meeting people from all walks of life...i'm pretty sure of what i want...but still...i dont wanna close the case...there's always a risk...of change...but baby...i want you to know u feature in my life...i want you to stay there...for everything that may come our way, i'll be ready to face it...will u face it with me?nevertheless... i love you...
'fallen_angel'
8:07 PM