Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Goodbyes and farewells.
hell knows how much i hate them.
i received it, read it over and over again
now, i'm at a lost for words.
it was never my intention for things to turn out this way
but there no point for 'buts' or 'if onlys' huh?
i know you've been here and have read about my thoughts and feelings
ithad never meant to be a secret anyway.
no doubt you've made mistakes...but who hasn't?
hell! i've made gazillions of them.
there's no need to ask for forgiveness for there is no blame.
there's no need to plead for that little favour for i will offer.
not in the name of graciousness, but in the name of past and memories
don't pray for me; i don't deserve such kindness.
but i feel i've let you down and hence let me be the one praying - for your happiness, safety and success.
rest assured i will remember you and if the day comes and i see you on the streets, i'll say 'hi...it's been a while'
i think u know that i'm satisfied with what i have now
love is selfish and i am not sorry for that
i believe whatever happened, happened for a reason
i'm starting on a clean and fresh slate just as i've promised him and myself...and there's no way i'll allow myself to make silly mistakes once again.
i've began to appreciate the meaning of the phrase: "when he doesn't love you the way you want him to, it doesn't mean that he's not loving you the best he can"
i'm one who's perfectly comfortable in silence... but it seems you're not and i'm losti dunno what to do, honestly.i'm sorry to put you through long periods of silence that you seem impatient with... but i don't see how we can do otherwise. i dunno if i'm right but i'm just throwing in a wild guess... don't take any of it to heart.i'm kinda emo today.
moody, pent-up and all that funny funny feelings.
why?
i dunno any more than you do so don't bother trying to find out.shan't waste my time here since i dunno what else to say...
'fallen_angel'
12:52 AM