Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Last day of salsa classes...so freaking sad can???
sigh
worst thing was that only 3 guys turned up and we girls were not properly satisfied.
hmph.
there were not enough guys to go around.
hope Mr. Ram really makes the intermediate classes happen real soon...i wanna continue!!!
oh and a new conclusion made -
i hate dentists.
period.
though i've met many cute ones but hell, they suck ah!
so not gentle and so not caring.
they only care about hurting my poor gums and teeth.
painful ah.
but i guess its not big deal as compared to his.
gawd.
i felt horrible when i saw him in pain...like so helpless and there's nothing i can do.
then i'm afraid of saying what comes to mind also cos i'm afraid of being brushed off again.
can only care deep down in my heart and hope to hell and back that it works.
oh well.
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i read this part in my Nora Roberts' novel and thought it spelt out my feelings totally...
"From the window of her office, Willa could see Lily. She was never far from Adam these days, had rarely left his side since the night they came back from the high country, with a gunshot wound in Adam's arm. Willa watched Lily touch Adam's shoulder, as she often did, fussing with the sling he wore.He was healing. No, she thought, they were healing each other.How would it be to have someone that devoted, that much in love, that blind to everything but you? How would it feel to feel exactly the same way about someone?Scary, she thought, but maybe it would be worth those jiggles of fear and doubt to experience that kind of unfettered emotion. It would be an exhilarating trip, that wild ride on pure feelings, pure need. And more, she realised, beyond the moment, the promise and permanence that was so easily read on the faces of Lily and Adam when they look at each other.The little secret smiles, the signals that were so personal. So theirs. What a thrill, she mused, and what security to know there was someone who would be there for you, always. To have someone who thought of you first, and last."sigh.
sounds so sweet...so perfect.
if anyone out there actually understands my point of view and my take on love, they'll understand why i appreciate NR so much.
she manages to take me into her world, and give me the idea that i can be just like Lily.
despite all her ugly past with an abusive husband and terrifying ordeals, she manages to find the perfect man who loves her unconditionally and who is willing to sacrifice him just for her happiness. the kind of quiet love they share...the sort that needs no words...the sort that's hinged on everlasting love and TLC.
sigh.
that's why they're called fiction too, isn't it?
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i'm choosing to ignore everyone's advice and warnings. i sure hope it's gonna be a smart move. why does it always have to hurt. am i asking for too much? is it really too much to ask for? whatever it is, i swear i'll never make the mistake of missing it all from before. before is the past. long gone, died and gone with the wind.
'fallen_angel'
11:45 PM
