Monday, October 31, 2005
seems like it's obvious what the next step should be right?
but i can't seem to bring myself to do it.
what the heck am i so freaking afraid of?
truth is, i'm afraid of everything.
i'm afraid of consequences and even more afraid of being the cause to the consequences.
maybe he's right...there's nothing i should be afraid of...i should start thinking for myself and not for others anymore cos in the end, i'll not be happy and it's just not worth it.
says the problem with me is that i think too much about others and how they feel, how they think. i'm not doing enough for myself.
i don't know why this is happening? might be that i'm expecting 'that' much from us but it's unattainable? it's just not within his league...
before, i was spoilt like a brat...now? i can't seem to settle for anything less.
it sucks. but it's not totally a bad thing probably.
i need a sign...somehow...i need to know i have the courage and the strength.
~fallen angel, disillusioned soul~
'fallen_angel'
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