Sunday, December 18, 2005
argh!
mummy bought new hp...Panasonic VS3...
it's the one i've been aiming for for a while already...
sigh.
her previous hp less than 2 months old lar.
unfairness.
i want new hp!!!
sigh sigh sigh
actually i can sign my own line already...but mummy's using my name and now i'm stuck with the lousy nokia.
oh well.
heard Air Supply's "I'm all out of love" on daddy's car this evening and i almost cried again.
the lyrics pulled at this really tender chord somewhere in my heart and i almost couldn't control my feelings...especially when i heard the guitar solo...sigh...
for the benefits of those of you who don't know the lyrics of this song (shame on you), here's how it goes -
I'm lying aloneWith my head on the phoneThinking of you till it hurtsI know you're hurt tooBut what else can we do?Tormented and torn apartI wish I could carryYour smile in my heartFor times when my life seems so lowIt would make me believeWhat tomorrow could bringWhen today doesn't really knowDoesn't really knowChorus:I'm all out of loveI'm so lost without youI know you were rightBelieving for so longI'm all out of loveWhat am I without youI can't be too lateTo say that I was so wrongI want you to come backAnd carry me homeAway from these long lonely nightsI'm reaching for youAre you feeling it tooDoes the feeling seem oh so rightAnd what would you say If I called on you nowAnd said that I can't hold onThere's no easy wayIt gets harder each dayPlease love me or I'll be goneI'll be goneOh, what are you thinking of?What are you thinking of?Oh, what are you thinking of?What are you thinking of?yup...that's it.
it's that uncanny how some songs just reads your mind effortlessly like that.
sigh
you once told me that if i can't take it anymore, let you know...
cos chances are that you're probably feeling the same way...
but what if today i tell you that i can't take it anymore?
would you really feel that way too?
would you be willing to fall back into the canyon when you're unsure how deep is it and wheether or not you can ever get out of it? or whether or not you'll be happy staying in it for the rest of your life?
i really don't wanna doubt you...but i can't help but feel that way.
now every night, i lie in bed, stare at the empty ceiling and feel my heart hurting.
i tell myself to sleep so that the pain can be ignored and that's the reason why i choose to go to bed early...it shortens my waking hours and hence shortens my hurting hours.
i wanna learn to forget...i wanna learn to ignore my feelings...i wanna learn to forget the love i have for you.
may the angels watch over me while i embark on this almost impossible journey...
before i go...allow one last indulgence in cyberspace...
I WANT NEW HANDPHONE!!!!!thanks for tolerating me once again...ciao ciao!
'fallen_angel'
8:10 PM