Friday, December 02, 2005
some men can be so retarded. that is, if u can even call them men. guys, dudes, boys at the worst.
seriously
if u think u're not matured enough to handle it, don't get into it. it'll hurt every single party involved.
but obviously, if u think u can handle it, show that u can.
sometimes by thinking u can, insisting u can, not accepting other's ideas and not wanting to deviate from your obviously wrong standpoint, u screw up. real bad.
so here's a lesson for all would-be lovebirds -
love alone is not sufficient to sustain a relationship.
it might last...who knows?
but u can be damn sure that it won't be happy.
it's hurting now...and i don't know what to do about it.
somehow, i know it's not your fault cos that's just the way u are but i really can't help feeling the way i do.
i'm trying...
i'm really trying very very hard to change.
but it's so difficult when u're not making an effort to make things easier for me.
u know that demanding it as and whenever u want it doesn't make it so, don't u?
i'm happy when i'm with u...
so very extremely happy...
but only when u're in a good mood.
our relationship is so dictated by your mood swings and it's so so tiring.
This is from Luke Zachary, a dear friend from secondary school:
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return, do not take advantage, do not cause pain.
How you deal with love is how you deal with youself, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame on each other, understand that there is a reason and there is a meaning.
Be grateful that at least both of you have given each other happy memories which will stay in each others mind.
Remember that you don't choose love.
Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need.
They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need.
They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this, and keep it to your heart.
Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life
I love you... ~fallen angel, disillusioned soul~
'fallen_angel'
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