Sunday, January 22, 2006
i've officially sent Mr. Aloysius Lee an email to say i've given up on OSIP.
that is after a whole night of troubling and thinking
and an afternoon of speaking to mummy
she feels that it's not worth it...
that i shouldn't go
furthermore, what gonna happen to my family?
now they are still handling everything ok cos Chloe is working...
but i need to get a job to help out too...
Drago starting primary school next year...
sigh
guess it'll be better if i stay in Singapore...
where i can get at least $500 allowance every month
and i can still work part-time for more income
if i go over, i'll have to fork out my own air-fare, find a way to pay for my own expenditure...
all that even though food and lodging would most probably be provided
it's just not worth it...
plus
what am i to do without all my darlings over here in singapore for 5 whole months?
my family and friends
rozy, sher, etc...
sigh
i don't wanna even start on anyone else i'll be missing
i know myself too well...i get lonely too easily
i know there are differences to resolve
and i'll try my best to
hope you'd help me...
i don't ever wanna see the day i dread come...
like i said,
it truly pays to work out our differences
especially if it mean forever
all i can say is that i'll make an effort
i will...
sigh
i love you baby...
missing ya too...
now,
back to chionging projects
wish me luck!
'fallen_angel'
6:37 PM