Friday, May 19, 2006
well
seems like i'm kinda getting what i wanted huh?
or do you call it what i deserved?
leave you be?
as in "leave me alone"? or "get out of my life"?
i know why you are saying this... but i can't understand why...
but i guess i cant blame you for saying that...
i'm just sorry that whatever happened had to happen...
you probably dont wanna hear any of this anymore
but i still have to get it out of my chest
if that's what you are asking for, i'll give it to you...
i'll leave you alone.
and am i supposed to pretend i dont see you anymore even though you're right in front of me?
i dunno what to do anymore...
my defenses are all breaking down...
but i guess its probably better for you to start hating me and shutting me outta your life too huh?
sigh
for those who are wondering how it is that i can be so messed up emotionally and not show anything in front of you guys,
well
i'm a gemini.
so go figure.
plus, this is not my first time feeling like this.
having had professional help, i can distinguish what's actually happening to me in my mind and in my heart.
i just need to try all over again.
there's only so few i can count on to bare all too.
"i love you" - and that's to all who love me too.
'fallen_angel'
10:37 PM