Sunday, June 25, 2006
despite all that's said and done
solitude still beckons me to join its ranks
and yes,
i think i've signed up to be a member of the solitude society
singlehood...
means freedom
but can also mean loneliness
means self-discovery
but better not mean self-destruction
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[self-composed... 2003]Rounding the left corner of the streetThe cool evening breeze is in my hairAnd the tears streamig down my cheeksWhere's everybody?Where are the smiling couples hand-in-hand?Where are the giggling children playing catch?Where are the pimply teens acting like they own the world?Where's everyone?I'm lostCan't find my wayCan't see where I belongCan't find my way homeWhere's me?In the world I see myself inNo-one's thereNo-one's there to pick me when I fallTo comfort me when I cryLike now.Where's everyone?I've rounded the left corner of the streetThe evening breeze is nowhere to be foundAnd the night's as still as my heartMy tears are still streamingWhen will it ever cease to flow?I wish for a huge torrent of rainTo mask my pain and tearsWhere am I?Where will I end up in?Who will I end up as?-------------------------------------------
Journey to the PastHeart don't fail me nowCourage don't desert meDon't run back now that we're herePeople always say Life is full of choicesNo-one ever mentions fearOr how the world can seem so vastOn a journey to the pastSomewhere down the roadI kow someone's waitingYears of dreams just can't be wrongArms will open wideI'll be safe and wantedFinally home where I belongWell startign now I'm learning fastOn this journey to the pastHome. Love. Family.There was once a time I must have had them tooHome. Love. Family.I will never be complete until I find youOne step at a timeOne hope, then anotherWho knows where this road may goBack to who I wasOn to find my futureThings my heart still needs to knowYes, let this be a signLet this road be mineLet it lead me to my pastAnd bring me homeAt last.-------------------------------------------
ReflectionLook at meYou may think you seewho I really amBut you'll never know meEverydayIt's as if I play a partNow I seeIf I wear a maskI can fool the world But I cannot foolmy heartWho is that girl I seeStaring straight back at me?When will my reflection showwho I am inside?I am nowin a world where I have tohide my heartand what I believe inBut somehowI will show the worldWhat's inside my heartAnd be loved for who I amWho is that girl I seeStaring straight back at me?Why is my reflectionsomeone I don't knowMust I pretend that I'mSomeone else for all time?When will my reflection showWho I am inside?There's a heart that must be free to flyThat burns with a needto know the reason whyWhy must we all concealwhat we thinkhow we fee?Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?I won't pretend that I'm Someone elseFor all timeWhen will my reflection showWho I am inside?When will my reflection showWho I am inside?------------------------------------------
a new life
a new start...
'fallen_angel'
1:17 AM