Sunday, June 04, 2006
I feel like a brand new person
After a whole week of gloom, unhappiness and hurting,
i realised, perhaps a little belatedly, that it's high time i woke up from my disillusioned state of mind
for so many years, i've been seeing myself as a worthless soul
but now, i've finally found my self-confidence
things happened in the past for a reason and i believe that reason is for me to grow up and know what life is really about
i told myself a few days back that from now on, i shall strive hard
strive hard for my dreams
strive hard for my goals
strive hard for what i want in my life
strive hard to not let anyone else put me down
strive hard not to let people judge me for what i did and who i have been
and strive hard to be whom i love, to be the person i want to be
mistakes were made
prices were paid
hopes were shattered
much had been sacrificed
but it's all a part of life... something i have to go through, to be who i should be in the future
maybe i've been trying far too hard to convince myself that i'm that person... that person whom i never would become
i've learnt my lesson now
the most painful lesson that any woman can ever go through
but life still goes on
people have been hurt
and i have so much regrets
but life leaves no rooms for regrets huh?
the clock keeps ticking, the world keeps turning, and i'll keep growing
for now, all i wanna do is to build back the life i should have
take that first step to independence
and find the love that truly belongs to me... and only me
if you read this and you know that i'm referring to you, good
but i can only hope
i have that target locked in my mind and my sight
but i pray only for the strength to reach for it
it's gonna be a rocky ride... a tough and long journey
my only reward would be that in the end, my attempt wont be a futile one
'fallen_angel'
8:32 PM
