Saturday, July 29, 2006
i just realised that i've been slacking my weekends away
sigh
went for facial this morning cos my forehead was filled with pimples
couldnt stand it any longer
after i got home,
came online for awhile
then fell asleep on my bed
all i can blame is myself cos i put my laptop on my bedside
so whenever i use it, i'm basically just sitting on my bed
so yeah
maybe that's why i cant seem to get much work done like that
oh well
on thursday,
bobby, my headwaiter from long bar called
it was 4 plus in the afternoon
and he asked me if i could go to work
at about 6pm
ha-ha
what a joke
are they really so desperate?
so much so that they have to call me even though i've already resigned?
then i heard that they are running really low on manpower
in the past when i was there,
each night had at least 8 service staff or more
now,
at most 5 or 6
so pathetic
but i turned him down
for a couple of reasons
one, i had a movie date already
two, i'm not one who'd make u-turns and go back to places i've already quit unless i really want to (if i'm a u-turn person, i'd be back at pan pacific by now. they've called me countless times.)
three, there are people i dont wanna have to face there
four, i dont wanna go throught the hassle of applying for the retarded casual labour pass that is so troublesome and annoyin'
lastly,
going back there will bring back memories i no longer wanna be reminded of
so yeah
there you go.
sighit's still the 29thand i cant overcome my own personal barrieri think there's only one or maybe two persons who really know what i mean by my personal barrierafter so long,i cannot even bring myself to think about iti triedi really tried very hardbut i just cantthe guilt is so greatthe fear is so reali dunno what to do about it except hope that time can ease the pain and lessen the traumacome back to me someday baby...i'm waiting...and i dont wanna wait too long.
'fallen_angel'
10:51 PM