Thursday, July 06, 2006
my dear cousin says love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, and he wears it everyday.
is it true?
is love really so simple?
if it was really the case, then i say i cant even keep track of the times he's shown his love for me.
even edna thinks that if 2 persons love each other, nothing should stop them from being together.
but i still think there is really such a thing called 'not emotionally ready for a relationship'...
or am i just finding a lame excuse for myself?
if what i see is meant for my eyes, here's the answer to your question: no, no-one said it was gonna be easy. but no-one said it was impossible either. and no, i'm not enjoying the ride. to everyone else, it may seem like i am enjoying it fully... but it's killing me...
i'm just hoping that one morning i can wake up and be rejuvenated, feeling as though the night's sleep has killed all the monsters in me.
so much has changed in me ever since the incidents of the past few months
ever since i knew you, had you, gave up on you, found you and lost you all over again.
never in years of dating, have i lost so much sleep and hurt so much over a single relationship.
does that tel me something?
i dunno... if it is, i need someone to show me.
ti voglio bene...
mi dispiace...
one thing edna said just now really touched my heart...
she said she wants to get better... so that she can comfort me the same way i comfort her.
she doesnt want to just be a listening ear... she wants to be able to help me.
i love her for that...
you know,
i think i'm really really fortunate...
i have wonderful friends like Edna and Rozy, who listens to everything i say and who tries their best to help me out of my troubles...
thank you girls... for not judging, for not abandoning and for listening... i love you both...
and to a certain someone out there
i hope you know that i'm speaking to you...
the assurance you give me, that you'll always be there no matter what happens, is what keeps me going at times...
when i feel that the whole world is going against me, i find comfort in knowing there is at least one person out there who will be on my side.
i know it seems selfish of me... what i'm doing...
and i also know i'm maybe being very unfair to you...
but i really dunno what else to do and how to handle the things that are happening between us...
the unconventional relationship between us is amazing but at the same time, a terrible enigma within itself. one which drives me crazy at times just thinking about it...
sei affascinante.
'nascondre' or 'correre'?
'piangere' or 'ridere'?
or simply 'credere'?
'sorridere' can be the hardest thing to do sometimes. when you just cannot do it from the bottom of your heart.
E una bella giornata
but it's as dark as midnight inside of me.
arrivederci...
'fallen_angel'
9:54 PM