Tuesday, August 01, 2006
stay happy?
well in order for me to stay happy, i have to first be happy
how else can i stay happy right?
and well, it's true that i do have people around for me
but everyone still needs that special someone
dont you?
if not, you also have alot of friends around you who'll be there for you right?
and rest assured that you'll never be un-needed
sigh
though you say that everyone likes me there,
but i really dont know
sigh
nevertheless,
every moment we shared will be cherished and you'll always be on my mind
the downs... i'll learn for sure...
but my next love?
i doubt...
i dont know when a next love can come around for me
i miss you lots too
i'm sorry i had to make the choice i made
and i also thank you for respecting my choice
only time can tell...
during the past few months of singlehood
i've renewed and redeveloped some friendships that i know i'll treasure so much
people like shawn and gavin, among others of course... you know who you are =)
that's the only good thing about my new status i guess
i initially thought that with no relationship to distract me and take up my time,
i'll be able to spend more time on my studies and at least try to raise my GPA from last semester's dismal results.
but alas,
all i've succeeded in doing is further distract myself,
from all my crazy and confusing thoughts.
till now,
i cant say my results are improving much
i cant say i'm putting more efforts into my studies
for example,
my business enterprise reflections are due on monday
and i havent even started
pro right?
grr
sigh
someone give me motivation to work hard
please
i need someone to motivate me
gimme a purpose in life.
sigh
the only thing driving me now is the fact that school's coming to an end
and i so wanna get outta TP
oh well
last lap
jia you!
and to all my fellow HTM-ers, jia you too!
we'll all make it together...
this morning
i woke up pretty early
considering that i only have to be in school at 2pm for a project meeting
i woke up at 8 plus am
that's despite falling asleep only at 3 or 4am in the morning
and i lay in bed,
thinking of alot of stuff
some people
and other kinda stuff
hmm...
sigh
so tired now
but still want to watch CSI later
well
everything at home seems fine
except that i can sense the first fallout between chloe and parents
all because she's in love with rockclimbing
and she's extremely talented at it too!
her seniors say she's the strongest freshie of all
plus her first competition she got 10th place
fantastic achievement if you ask me
she's barely been training for 2 months or so
but mum and dad, as always,
forbids that
mum says "i dont like her to do rockclimbing" period.
so cruel
and that's just cos she's not as ladylike as you'd like your daughter to be
well at least find consolation in the fact that she still wear skirts and boys still go after her
her life is not yours
it's hers
its what she's happiest doing
so why deprive her?
by forcing her to quit, by discouraging her, by scolding her,
you're only gonna mke her run away
sooner or later, she'll hate coming home
it happened with me before
why cant you learn your lessons?
if she's neglecting her studies then fine
but she's not!
in fact she's doing so super well!
she topped her class in 4 subjects out of 5 this past mid semester tests
not enough?
she got full marks for her maths paper too
still not enough?
i really dunno what you expect of us...
give the girl a break
she loves what she's doing, let her do it.
seriously.
sigh
i rest my case for now
dont push your luck.
period.
sigh
CSI starting...
i should get going
been stuck on this page all evening...
bye guys... be back tmw
'fallen_angel'
8:35 PM