Thursday, October 05, 2006
Conclusion: Getting pissed drunk 3 days in a row is not good.
not good for your physical health and neither is it good for your mental wellness.
The usually nice to everyone at work me started snapping at people who got on my nerves early in the morning.
And this morning, I was late for work. AGAIN.
2nd time!
I've never had the habit of being late for work. More often than not, I'm early.
Idiot.
Serves me right for downing Martell till 12plus last night though I was supposed to wake up at 4.30am.
Today at work, I found myself with more responsibilities than usual.
And by right, I shouldn't have any problems handling them.
Sigh.
And when Rose called me while I was paying for my retail therapy,
to ask me about some envelope that she swears she saw me holding,
i blanked out.
"envelope? what envelope? i dunno... i have no impression of myself holding the envelope. i swear!"
I ended up getting scolded by her but i really dunno!
I'm still thinking if she's right or she made a mistake.
shit.
sigh.
my heads all light and heavy at the same time.
the only thing i can be glad of is that i go drinking with my dearest cousin so i know there's always someone to take care of me and i know i'll never do foolish things once i get drunk.
better still, my dad sponsors my Martell and Chivas!
haha... indirectly lar...
Anyway,
I indulged in a little bit of retail therapy this afternoon while waiting for my mum to end work so she can send me home.
Did I mention that she's joined a new company and her office is in Shaw Centre? Haha... yeah.
went into Zara and just took whatever caught my eye.
so satisfying.
i haven't shopped decently for more than half a year!
goodness...
anyway, i was so excited that i mistakenly took a pair of leggings that are too small for my thunder thighs.
-_-"
yeah so... i have to go back and exchange tomorrow.
maybe get one more item.
today didn't have much time.
but i have to keep reminding myself that i have limited pay.
like SUPER UBER limited. this latest paycheck? $307.
like... WTF?
so yeah.
i guess now i have time to go work part-time?
no other commitments except for internship.
if people like Jovi can still work at Waraku despite internship,
i guess i can too.
at least with a part-time job to occupy my nights, i wont have the time and energy to think too much, much less get mself pissed-drunk at a place my dad frequents like his 2nd home.
so yeah.
i'll still think about it.
i think i still have Lawrence's number.
hmmm...
maybe some other place that isnt so strict to their staff... somewhere i can drink and enjoy on the job.
maybe... maybe...
yesterday was our first FBMA youth arm meeting.
at Conrad Hotel.
So now, I'm officially the PR Manager.
sounds great huh?
I feel up to the challenge, and I hope I don't let myself down.
At least I'm working in line with my goals to go into Communications.
Though my first love would still be journalism, i guess i wouldn't wanna study it.
get what i mean?
i need a career that i can satisfy myself with. Journalism can be a hobby.
oh well.
and... F&B will be my first platform. because it is where i know i can definitely excel in. it is where i know i have the knowledge and expertise in. one step at a time. in terms of life and career, i'm still very young and tender.
and my assistants? Sherry and DreY!
haha...
PR is gonna be a freaking havoc department.
happening sia
haha...
i hope we'll work well together with passion and commitment. The exact same ingredients needed to succeed in the F&B industry.
i've thought of our directions and goals already so it's a good start i guess.
i want to turn back time.
i want to forget the present.
i wanna un-do all the happiness i've caused myself and others.
i wanna un-do everything i've done to hurt myself and my loved ones.
will i ever get a chance?
if i do, will i take it?
i wanna go on a long long holiday.
alone and peacefully.
i think i lost myself somewhere along the past 3 years...
i need to search for the true me.
i wanna travel to places like Eqypt, New Zealand, Australia, Switzerland, Italy, France, etc...
i need a sponsor who's willing to gimme the money but at the same time dont want to travel with me.
hahaha...
like so impossible.
Walking in Zara with its winter collection,
i dream of a white christmas in somewhere like Japan or London.
it's been a long time since i first had this dream.
and i still have it.
it burns within me and its like a flame that grows bigger and stronger as the years pass by.
now i need to go sleep early.
cos tmw early morning have to go SIR building with granny...
probably gonna need a sleeping pill but yeah...
good night all...
'fallen_angel'
8:15 PM
