Saturday, November 11, 2006
It's been awhile...
Firstly,
the reason why i seemed to have disappeared from the face of earth for so long is due to a few factors:
#1 - Attachment at TT is so torturing, time-consuming and energy-sapping. for example, yesterday i was on the afternoon shift and worked till 10plus. then was forced to go for the irritating DnD at Hilton Hotel until 12plus. it was a waste of time and i truly didn't see an enjoyment in it. It would be ok, except for the fact that this morning, i had to be at work at 7am. which means if i go home and sleep, i need to wake up at 4.30am. which will leave me with barely 2 to 3 hours. i didn't dare to sleep, cos i know i'd definitely not be able to get up. so, hanged around in orchard throughout the night. so as of now, i've gone about 30-odd hours without sleep. and i feel like a walking zombie.
#2 - back to modeling. done a few days of modeling for OSIM's new product... awfully good money but it's not dependable. been shuttling around for auditions and castings with some near successes but still lacking the last stroke of luck.
#3 - FBMA youth arm... time-consuming and it's a heavy responsibility. i know i will relish the responsibility. i just need to get used to it...
#4 - still helping my manager at TT deal with some of his workload from the ARDE Singapore. should be over soon... hopefully.
#5 - as some people would have already seen, i'm back in the dating field. so yes, i'm not gonna hide the fact that i've bounced back from heartbreak and as always, i believe strongly in light at the end of the tunnel still... think what you may think about me and say what you may say. all i have to say is - my uncanny ability to bounce back from my losses and stand up stronger has led me thus far all these years. and this ability does not make me less of a woman than i am. whatever impression you may draw, it's your impression afterall. no, i havent forgotten the past, and neither have i forgotten you or him. no way will i forget. i have merely chosen to give myself a chance... and put the keys to my happiness in my own hands instead of anyone else's. if this doesnt make sense to you, dont bother trying to figure it out. cos it's likely that you never will...
all i know now,
is that i need sleep.
desperately.
once upon a time,
i could go without sleep for 72hours on end,
work 17hour shifts for 3 to 4 days in a row,
and not feel the tug of weariness.
but i can't now.
i wonder if it because i'm growing old,
or it's merely cos i'm not enjoying my job?
wonder wonder wonder.
it's was great to see familiar faces along the streets... especially GAYNA! nu-er! getting prettier and prettier by the day... i saw the puzzled look in your eyes and i promise i'll explain it to you when we get the chance yeah? =) oh and you take care too...
Gavin, Shawn, Joce and gang!
KTV!!!!
i want my kopitiam sessionsssssssssssss toooooo...........
i'm dying from cold turkey...
and i truly truly miss you people...
take care and dont work too hard wor.....
good night...
i'll try to be back as soon as i can.
'fallen_angel'
7:37 PM
